Almost a month ago i got my PhD, while i was very upset about my performance, now things have come into place. I knew (i did) that people will not remembered how i performed. They will remember it well, but then my "trustability" threshold will be lowered. I can not be more explicit, i guess in this career you are developing "trustability" all the time, if you want to be the best, you need to have a high level of "trustability" in all aspects, in all aspects again. The hard thing i guess is that you need to be very carefully about the forms and the content, you have to dare and be aggresive, but you also need to build. I guess the more i think about these things the far away i am from the objective.

Any how, seems that i am getting more protestant (i am obssesed about achievements, and yet i have none). Enough of that, i felt very well with my family, all of them came, here a list if you wonder.

Concepción
Francisco
Amanda
Tio Amado
Tia Irma
Amando
Omar
Iván
Tio Hector
Priscilla o Ramona
Citlali
Andrés
Abuela Clementina
Tita
Tia Gela
Carlos
Lania
Jorge
Carla

Non family
Auribel

Alfred Maquet
Andreas Becker
Nico Stolterfoht
Paco Fernandez
Pablo Moreno


And yet more people you could ever imagine. Many thing happened from there, i was a week with my little kids (Andrés y Citlali), we had a week of spanglish, lot of spanglish, (i do hate the spanglish, but i could not help it).

Nunca había sentido tanto cariño por unos niños, de verdad, son mi sangre y lo sentí muy profundamente. Citlali es como mi hermana, parecen compartir algo, una especie de destino, me pasó lo mismo que me pasa con mi hermana, creo que solo yo puedo entenderla verdaderamente. Andrés es como yo, somos muy parecidos, o algo así.

Mañana es el examen de Nú, estoy tranquilo porque ella lo está. Suerte para mañana

My first very great failure

The one thing good about it is that it was not a minor thing, it was a big and great failure. I have the PhD with Cum Laude and all the parents will be happy about it but not me, i can not be happy with it, it is so difficult for me to do all this kind of things, i ama reching dangerously to my incompetence according to the Peter Principle.

There are many small detail to talk about, but by now you must know something, it was a great failure and my presentation was terrible bad, way too bad. I feel like crying when i did it. I don't regret anything but i did it wrong i believe that there was good science in the thesis, it was bad wrtitten as they told me and i felt very bad about it.

I just can imporive if i want to keep doing physics. I dreamed of all perfect all rigth thesis and it was not, from the manuscript to the presentation. I had a very good tribunal, but that was the only good part.

I may be over reacting but i hope to say something more in detail latter.